ah heh

Its 8am and I have been awake since 7 despite sleeping at 2. Somehow, my body is slowly being adjusted back into army life (noooooooooooooooooooooooo). I guess I half-expected it, that I would get into the insane OCS course. My parents are understandably delighted and I am filled with dread that I would just die there. Never mind, think of the incredible paycheck!

I saw this quote a couple of days ago;

If you could choose what would happen in your life, life would be a whole lot less complicated, but much less beautiful.

pray

I was going for a run today at the clementi canal when I saw this group of teenagers praying in a group. Wanting to kaypoh, I chose to do my cool down there and eavesdrop. Turns out one of their peers is very sick and they are praying for her now.

Looking at them pray, I was struck by how beautiful a prayer is. When you see someone close their eyes, clasp their hands and just BELIEVE; Believe that somehow by saying a few words, a divine being will change the circumstance they are trapped in. It really is very wonderful when you see how they just defy logic and science and just will whatever they believe to come true.

I am not a very devout christian but this is one of the few reasons why i continually go to church. The beauty of prayer.

life is beautiful

is it, really?

I don't know.

My life now is freaking awesome where I get to do the things I want and there are no annoying sergeants to come screw me.

But the thing is, I gotta start to acclimatise back to army life cause its gonna be a long long period of hell up next.

Brightsparks is possibly the most annoying and depressing website one can ever come up with. The designer of it is fucking atrocious. So much insane forms to fill in and you dare call your application easy.

I know many of my friends are upset over their results and I hope this quote cheers you up.

If you could choose the things that happen to you, Life would be a whole lot simpler, but much less beautiful.

See it as a test of yourself. Those 5 letters cant possibly spell out whether you will be a success or failure. So please do have the stomach for the fight and fight on!

pee oh pee

And so ends my 9 weeeks stint as Leopard. I must admit, I had grown rather accustomed to the companionship and camaderie during my time there.
Leopard 4 section 2 was the sickest pullup section which i invariably always ended up bottom.
I do hope we stay in touch, or better stick together in whichever command school we go to. That would be nice =D.

MY A levels were kinda screwy and it really sucks whenever i think of that @#$%@$#^@ C. I guess you win some and you lose most of them. sigh.

i don't know

I don't like the fact that I'm in control of my life now.
I think i liked the fact that my life was planned ahead of me and i did not need to worry about where my life would go.